AdMirInG AmBiGuiTy

That about sums my feelings today.

I feel an evolution occurring inside of me.

I feel as though I am becoming Callus to many things.
Gone is this drive I had for the past months and months and all the stuff I got absorbed in. Its a gift and a curse to have an obsessive personality cause what you end up doing, as you would guess, is Obsessing.

And Now, this day, I awoke, feeling, a little better from my stomach illness, a bit wondrous about my knee problem and a bit ambiguous about anything outside of my immediate family.
Is is survival technique? Am I dumbing things down to myself for emotional management. Is it my body seeking understanding by dropping desire and want for certain things? Who knows? In fact, all I am feeling Biguous towards (is that the opposite of ambiguous) is my finances, kids, SSP bicycle business, my personal own lofty bike goals and my home. A complete opposite of what my mind has obsessed on lately.

One thing I continue to discover and marvel at is the Human Animal. It is a perplexing beast, and unique in many ways from all other animals in the animal kingdom, mainly because we are very aware that we eventually do have to physically depart this existence, whereas other animals, are not aware of such a thing.
Interesting.

Or

NOT...

Tomorrow bike stuff??? Who knows, say the chant with me, HEAL KNEE HEAL!

Take care,

Laters,

The NaKeD InDiaN